I think I deserve better than us too.

[ncoard]

Trying to hate you was like trying to unlearn how to use my own hands,
unnatural and impossible.
But I tried. God, babe, I swear I tried.

There’s a girl out there who is beautiful and knows how to love you,
I am not her. I promise I tried to be her for the longest time.
There’s a lover out there who’s hands don’t tremble when they touch you,
those hands are not my hands.
Sometimes, I don’t think my hands I use were meant for me,
like they don't fit quite right. They're too soft, always too shaky.
I do know that they definitely weren’t meant for you.

I don’t want to touch you again, I can’t remember your pulse
(On the nights that I’m angry at you,
I wonder if you had a heart at all, if your pulse was ever even there).
I think I might be starting to forget my own.
I’m beginning to forget who I was before you held me in your hands.
Maybe that’s a good thing. I never liked her much anyway.

I’m trying to forget your hands, I think I'm finaly forgetting your voice.
I think I am forgetting all of you, just a little.
(But I’m not hating you.
I don’t know if that’s worse).
I think i’m letting you go.

There’s a girl out there who’s heart isn’t bruised, who’s mouth isn’t bloody,
she will kiss you goodnight and never run away.
I'm sorry I couldn’t be her.

You'll find her one day. I hope she doesn't break your heart too.

[palilogy]

Good line "I don't want to touch you again"
But then end the line.
Stick with simple and strong.
Omit lines that the reader can infer on their own.