Filthy You

[thisgirl818]

You broke me.
Ruined every fairytale I knew
I never felt so dirty in my life
Until you.

You tainted me with those words
And promises.
I was drowning in your bed of lies
Helplessly ashamed.

After you everything felt like nothing
It was all numb.
I became desperate to feel something
Anything.

You tainted me with your touch
And I want it gone.
So I did everything I could
I let him touch me.

To wash your marks away
Erasing memories.
His kiss had replaced yours
Or at least I pretend.

He never touched me that way
Special and alive.
I don't feel beautiful when he fucks me
It felt empty.

Like there was something missing.
Maybe it's you.
I close my eyes and hide myself
over and over again.

I get drunk into my own sadness
Staring into nothing.
I couldn't tell him those things
Filthy, sinful secrets.

Not until I'll love him more than
I've ever loved you.
You broke me over and over
And I let you.

Because I loved you.
I did.
Like black ink spilling on the sheets
Filthy but beautiful.

[palilogy]

Love.
" I close my eyes and hide myself
over and over again."
Your best poem yet.
You dug deeper and really got into the tone. Well done!!

[thisgirl818]

Why do I still feel like this sometimes?

[LASERRR__371]

It's beautiful.
The pain is one many can feel through your words.