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Jennifer Winn Johnson begins her days with affirmations and prayer. “Dear Angels, Guides, and God, can I actually do something like this? I mean, the Camino route I’m planning to walk is 500 miles long and I don’t even like to hike….” From her home in California, Jennifer Johnson’s prayerful conversations prepare her for the famed Camino de Santiago pilgrimage. Johnson’s 2017 memoir, An Awakening Walk: 500 Miles to Self-Love and Acceptance on the Camino de Santiago, proves that yes, in fact, she can do it.
The Camino de Santiago is the route taken for centuries by spiritual seekers to the Apostle St. James shrine in Northern Spain. The trek takes over a month, walking five to eighteen miles each day. Most walkers, or pilgrims, carry heavy backpacks and stop for the night at rustic group hostels, or albergues. This didn’t appeal to Jennifer Johnson.
“Why am I afraid to walk the Camino with the big pack? Is this necessary? It sounds like a nightmare. You know I don’t believe we must struggle to be close to You....” Johnson set out to prove to herself that a spiritual life doesn’t require struggle. Careful to accommodate her physical needs, she begins her pilgrimage in Barcelona. A daily spiritual practice provides the foundation of her quest for self-acceptance. Johnson allows herself to take cabs for final stretches when her body is weary, has her luggage transported rather than carry a heavy backpack, and stays in hotels rather than the community albergues. Refusing to let her fears and doubts rule her, Johnson perseveres - one step at a time, one prayer at a time - and completes the journey.
Johnson’s writing style is decisive and easy to navigate. The book appears to be professionally edited, as I found only minor errors. Thirty-five chapters, one for each day of the walk, provide structure for the narrative. While I wanted to see what each day would bring for Jennifer, the entries eventually became somewhat tedious. Most days consisted of early breakfast, walking alone or with others, sore muscles, tapas and wine for dinner, retiring to the hotel, and sleep. I was hoping for more imagery about the Spanish countryside, the ancient architecture, and the connections with other pilgrims.
Though I have not experienced this pilgrimage myself, I have read several books and seen films about it. I honor the belief that struggle and strife are not prerequisites for a spiritual life. Taking cabs and staying in hotels allowed Johnson to accomplish the journey. I wondered, though, if she didn’t miss one of the hallmark gifts of the Camino: connection with others. Johnson chose not to lodge with the other pilgrims, dine with them, sleep with them, pray with them, and share daily triumphs and tribulations with them. Her journey was primarily solo. She engaged lightly with others at restaurants or on the trail but didn’t seem to forge deep connections. This may have been her intent, but it was something I missed.
I was rooting for Jennifer Johnson to overcome significant challenges. And she did. Paying attention to her body’s needs, she made sensible choices, spoke many prayers and cried many tears on her quest for self-acceptance. She accomplished walking the Camino her way, overcoming lifelong fears and doubts about her weight and endurance.
I imagine this book will appeal to spiritual seekers and those striving for a more loving sense of self. The spiritual references are diverse, primarily reflecting Eastern wisdom traditions and teachings from A Course in Miracles. You will not see many traditional Christian references. Camino purists will likely not appreciate this book. But if you are curious about a gentler, kinder way through life, you may love Jennifer Johnson’s version of the Camino de Santiago.
I rate An Awakening Walk 3 out of 4 stars. While I was hoping to be more wowed by the details of this non-fiction effort, I appreciated the optimism, the prayer, and the quest for self-love. Not insignificantly, Jennifer found her purpose on the trail; she now takes groups of people to experience the pilgrimage. It is said that the effect of the Camino begins when you finish the walk. Perhaps Jennifer Winn Johnson will share more with us as her pilgrimage continues.
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An Awakening Walk
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